Thursday, May 09, 2013
On Top of the World
I enjoy performing. I really do. It is a major confidence booster and is so much fun! When I am there, singing and dancing, I feel like I am on top of the world! I recently played Tiger Lily, my favorite character in the musical Peter Pan. I really enjoyed it because I really got to focus on dancing instead of singing. I was also relieved that I didn't have to fly (not real flying, harness-wire kinda flying), unlike my friend, who played John in the cast. Heights scared the moccasins off me. I asked my friend what it was like, and they replied with a one word answer: "exhilarating." I knew I had to try it for myself, but I was still too scared. I asked one of the stage crew members and they agreed to let me try flying after opening night. I was ready to conquer my fears when that little voice in the back of my head said: "No. Don't do it. You can't conquer your fear. You are not ready." So I apologized to the stage crew and told them that I couldn't. But they said that if I wanted to try any of the other nights I could. I was determined to try again the next night, but I got delayed at the theater. I kept telling myself that I would try again later, and that I wasn't ready. I knew that it was time for me to face my fears, but every time I tried to, the voice would come back. Worse, another one would pop up telling me I was a scaredy-cat. By the end of the first week of shows, I felt like a crazy person, with a thousand different voices in my head all saying different things! Soon came the last show. After all the tears that come with a last show, and strike, they asked if anyone wanted to try to fly. I was about to raise my hand when I forcefully slammed it down by my side and sulked down in my seat. I have regretted it ever since. It is funny how one little action can lead to a lot of guilt. After all, you only live once. Never be afraid. Always stay brave. Or you can end up regretting something for your whole life. Whether it is fashion, theater, etc., you must always be fearless. Comment below about your fearless moment.